No more parenting ego

I used to have this pride about the fact that Knox was growing up in a home without violence, abuse or poverty. It wasn't a perfect home but those are huge factors in damaging a child and they were things we were protecting him from. And then Tahu got cancer and don't try and tell me that a childhood where a parent has cancer is just as good and carefree as a childhood where that's not the case! One day he will look back (or maybe talk to his therapist) and go "wow that was really huge".

I know this wasn't our choice or our doing and that Knox can still have an awesome life but it hurts so much that his life path has changed so dramatically and there's nothing I can do about it. We are doing our best still, we will make mistakes and do the right thing just as much as before Tahu's diagnosis but it still took quite a bit to get my parenting ego back together after I realised this.