Journals for our boys

When I was pregnant with Knox I started a journal for him. But I wasn't very good at writing and I stopped before he was even born. Mostly because I got sick and ended up in hospital and then he came early and yeah, it was crazy. But I did keep notes on my phone about things I wanted to write for him.

Recently Tahu and I were talking and he said how he just had so many things he wanted to say to Knox but he might not get the chance. I mean how do you start to tell your 4 year old all the things you want him to know growing up when you know you might not be around to do it? We also talked about how there's so many funny and amazing things that Knox does that we won't remember because we don't write it down.

And then I remembered the journal. I'd kept it and so we pulled it out and started writing in it for him again. It's going to be funny stuff he does, memories we have of him and also things we want him to know. I bought a new one this week for this baby so that both of them will have a journal from us that was started before they were born.

In an ordinary life this would be special but can you imagine how much more special this will be that the boys will one day be given a journal that was written in specifically for them from their mum and their dad? And their dad might not be there anymore. How incredible to have words directly from their dad. I have mentioned this to a couple of friends who have lost parents and they both said how that would be more than incredible. There were tears even at just the thought.

I've been a "writer" for years. As in I've kept a journal since I was 13 and then I switched to blogging and while I did stop for a bit I still wrote a bit in other places. So that I'm doing this doesn't seem that big of a deal but that Tahu is so keen to do this with me shows me even more how amazing he is as a dad. What a thing to do! These journals will be so special for all of us and I'm so glad we have started them early enough to be able to write everything that we want over the next few years.

Tahu has also started keeping his own journal and I have started this blog. This year isn't something we want to remember but we do at the same time and we want to learn from everything and the best way to do this is to record it somehow. Through our writing, the Facebook page and photos I'm pretty sure we will have a good record of everything. The good and the bad.